My throat aches with pain, literally burns inside each time I take in a puff from the half burnt cigarette in my hand. The smell of smoke fills the insides of my nose when I exhale. I doubt if its taste of my own burning skin on the insides of my throat.

I’m suffering from heavy fever thats been going on around and severe tonsillitis. I’ve a sore throat and I seem to have lost my voice. I can’t speak for more than 30 seconds in one go. I’m too weak to keep up with my schedule and things seem to get even tighter with people demanding lots of things from me. Nothing seems to be right and everything is a mess.

1. My best friend is not talking to me. He wrote me a letter two days ago saying sorry but his words seem to have lost its meaning by looking at how he is acting. My bike’s back seat is usually empty when I ride to college. He is avoiding me these days. I have no idea what happened for his sudden change of character ever since we both returned to bangalore. I don’t know who he is anymore. I just wish I could talk this over (once we did). He just left me hanging.

2. I had a low key date yesterday with the same girl from this entry. There wasn’t much action yesterday but we spend some really good quality time together. We escaped from the urban jungle in the evening with my all new Pegasus. I couldn’t talk much since my throat kept discouraging me. So I played the role of the listener. The only happy thing these days is that at least she cares for me and my health

3. Pegasus had a face lift!, or rather a rear lift. lol. New 110/90 tyres with MAGs are in and seat lifted to a clear 20 inches. New brakes, higher twin seats and security systems. She was sitting so high and didn’t have a place to hold on to (which was actually my plan) so she had to keep hugging me all the way.

4. Bankrupt! After Pegasus had his day of beauty at the garage, my pockets were empty. And whats more? lots more was spend on my sore throat and decreasing health.

5. Website’s gallery design delayed. *sigh* No time or energy.

6. I haven’t talked to my parents or my sister for a couple of days. I let them know that I’m sick. But I have not received any call back. =[

My doctor told me not to smoke or drink until I finish my medicines, but I can’t think of anything better than marijuana to take all these pressure and tension off my chest. I think I’m on my way to quit smoking completely since I can’t feel the taste of my cigarettes and its toxins have no effect on my over drugged brain and nerve cells.

Everything is so confusing or maybe I’m outta my mind. I just wish that once I get my health back, I can fix all my problems, make up for lost time, get back to studies, fix things with my best friend and get my hands on the throttle. There are a lot more problems than what I’m able to list here, I hope I can fix them too.

Sorry for the late update ever since I left Dubai & I’ll blog when things get better (or worse).

So much for my happy ending.

-Ru

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