It only occurred to me today, as I prepare to go home from Bangalore, how upsetting some goodbyes are. Almost all my friends have already left, but over time, I’ve started call Bangalore my new home. I’m leaving a part of myself here, my sister and also, Pegasus.

I’m not heading home not because I want to, but because I love my sister I’ll take that plane. Give my parents one more chance (she will be giving them chances for eternity, if she keeps doing it). I changed my life from backwards to forwards to try and accommodate what was making me happy. I moved so many times in the last couple of years, it makes my head spin by just thinking about it. It was only last January I returned to Cochin from Bahrain (exactly an year ago), keeping in mind never to go back to the place and people that never even try to understand me.

WestLife - Flying without wings

Bahrain is where my life began, And thats where I want it to end. I can’t express the joy I feel when my feet touch the land I was born in, but who gave ANYONE the right deny the joy I feel? who are my parents to make my life unbearable in my own mother land?

Over time, I’ve learned to forget what they have done to me. But that doesn’t mean, I’ll keep my guards down. I’m too independent for them to hurt me once more. Last time when mom called me, she told me she cant endure more of “dad” again. Its not too long ago when she flew to Bahrain. I imagine how much strength it took for her to tell me how she really feels about “dad”. Let me see how things go, if things are going for the worse, I wont be coming back alone. I’ll bring her back too.

Few more things left to finish up in Bangalore. My flight is scheduled for 27th morning 4′o clock from Bangalore International to Dubai Intl. Its a connecting flight, I have to change flights once in Dubai (first time there, hope I’ll manage), then 1 hour journey to Bahrain Intl. in Manama. I’ll reach home on 27th itself (please don’t ask me about timezones and all of that stuff).

Anyhow, for one reason or the other,

I’m going home. See you soon.

My Photo
Title: “Navigator”
Location: A lake 25 miles off National Highway #7, Bangalore

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